no waste wednesday

i am just going to start you off here:

1. Plastica has these great never before seen
pigeon lamps. just wish that ikea put some-
thing out that is comparible.
2. pr1mary space feature artist anna cangialosi. i have made you look before but it's a must see if you are totally in love with all things bird/owls.

3. i cannot remember where i first saw this, i cannot give credit. but man showing and telling is
the way here. i cannot stop looking at some of these great works by some very great artists.
i guess you could use this place to have your art work printed and sold. this might be an
alternative for me at some point, very very very soon. check it: blaugallery. i have too
favorites to mention.

4. tobi wood designs

5. some very cool purses for those of us who aren't sewing as well as some you brillant others.
they even have some very interesting warhol things. i especially like the parcel purses. see
shop loop.

five cool things for you to check out. today it's framewright and possibly a good meal out or something. i weighed in for the first time yesterday sense feb 14. and i've lost 3 and a half pounds. did i already mention that in yesterdays post? don't think so. but ah. i'm thinking new bathing suit. i walked last night, but i'm going to have to continue the doubling of the 13 flights of stairs.


blue leftovers

i've exhausted myself creatively. on one very heavy hand i've done all i can with 'one growth', on the other hand i am still completely displeased with this last weekends effort of major progress and finality of the piece itself. it wasn't satisfying to finish. i am confused and frustrated about why and have so much to do in such a little bit of time. really? i will try to be honest. i must comfort myself a little with reality. my difficult work is over. i just called ron at framewrights and he'll be able to do slides and frames for about eight pieces before march fourth. i am so thankful for their work and willingness. i slack when it comes to slides and framing, waiting until a show op arises. i took the self portrait after christmas mid-january. cropped the photo looks nicely balanced and ooo so emoblah (my projection).

'one growth' is partial seen, far right. although on a critic friend's advice i've removed the car in the left hand corner/sec and painted a bicycle. i suppose i began to think about the only real growth in the painting being the narcissis bulb in the center. the avocado seed far left never sprouted and (not seen) is a hard boiled egg. compositionally i'm pleased with the flow, color, and repetition. but to achieve the smoothness absolutely killed me. the painting consumed me in a way that i am not used to, leaving me a little blue and blurry.

i've got to clean up 'crimepays' and deliver my work tomorrow afternoon. i had a really nice weekend and shouldn't feel the way i do. i have begun the process of flushing the accumulation of things. beginning with the ole 45's pc-trashed and the wooden chair went to ac/lc, leaving ample room for my easel. dad and mom gave me their old pc and i am letting mb use the harddrive, we're hooking up comcast tomorrow and i'll begin the quest. kate-i tried printvista-no success or something? will try again. found a mac4 for 18hundred buckaroos via mb and wishing for a diggicam. i know that my fam and friends will want me to define my relationship with mb. aaron asked that i think about it and attempt to articulate it because i haven't. i've been refusing. i have a lifelong history of 'dating' none xtians. thus the pattern evolves. i would like to use my blog to explore my thoughts. i am inspired and called out to be more honest, just as i mention days after vday. i start and stop, start and stop. fear calls be back from rushing. i really i'm not afraid to say i do not know. i do not know. i know this...

i want to feel somewhat protected from carrying the burden alone. i want a friend to shop for a new computer with. i want someone who is honest and light, simple. not as analytical as myself. i mostly want to be thirty and not feel twelve. i want to have my work constructively criticised my a fellow artist, a peer. someone who likes the same sort of art i do see the mag's i mention in last week's no waste wednesday. i like eating at indian mahal and don't know anyone else who'd like to go there with me or even suggest we do that. i want someone to remind me everyday that smoking cigarettes is killing me and it not be my mom or my sisternlaws, no offense girls. i want to work hard for someone other than myself because i feel i won't be rewarded. i won't see the reflection of sharing. i want my strength to be balanced with specifically a man's strength-that physiological makeup of a man vs. woman thing. knowing that i am not with a believer mosdef bothers me. i will have to faceoff once again. it is too hard to trust that god will bring a xtian man into my life. i really haven't asked him to bless me in that way. i've just been floating, working, building up my own spiritual walk and relationship. i am not with mb at this point to change him or to be changed. that's where i am at right now with men in my life and what i am doing. i feel happy and less afraid. i feel solid and incontrol. i feel god. i still want his mercy and grace. i love god more than anything else in my life.


where would i be

a no waste wednesday wishing it was valentine's day one more day this week or twice more in the months to come. maybe i could be more honest about the love i feel in my life. i know and feel to be a better lover of my life, family and friends now than when i was at eighteen, or even twenty five. so now it is thursday...

1. mojo burrito show/exhibit of old and new work (12 pieces at the least). march 4th through march 31, 2006. thanks to my friend matt. 5
a. four new pieces (two already done)
b. business cards (kate you got the link?)
c. more slides of older work
d. framing framing framing it all up.

2. DG picked it up last night @ "thanks a million for shopping a books a million"

3. B/D picked it up last night as well. couldn't help it. such incredible inspiration. i am also looking-shopping mac's. i may embarass myself here, but i do not care. things are changing in my life and i realize there isn't going to be a whole lot of judgement coming this way anyway. but i applied for a line of credit and only got a $1000.00 bucks. so my mac will have to wait until i save a little bit more moolah. i mean a grand is nothing, right? a mac 5 is up there in the 2500-3 g. price range. i have goals, you know, ideas that aren't going to be squashed by anything or anyone.

4. the ultimate guitar school i've though i haven't check this site out completely i'm sending it kate's way for j3 a.k.a josiah. there maybe something fun here for the whole fam.

5. started the biggest loser on february 14th, 2006. goal weight loss is thirty pounds. my body mass index tells me that i am obese. wouldn't you know it. i'm supposed to be one hundred to one hundred and ten pounds. hell! i'm going win the $300 bucks. i've got 12 weeks, that's 2 and 1/2 pounds a week. you may think i'm crazy...whooohooohooo!

over and out.


one fish two fish

blue fish, yellow fish. i could not believe my eyes last weekend when kate, josiah, eden and i trekked down to the largest aquarium in the world. yesterday i got my first roll of film back from the excursion and feel just as overwhelmed with wonder as i did while walking jaw dropped through the maze of people last sunday. i really hope my jellyfish photos come out as well or better than this roll. i cannot imagine that if i had gone snorkeling in hawaii, i would've seen as many fish as i did in my visit to the ga aquarium. i couldn't wait to show you all and felt after seeing andrea's flickr set that i'd bust in glee. fishy glee. i'd also like to welcome you, urge you, if you haven't already to take a look at kate's quar-um fotos. all i did this past weekend was work at the rx, read the martian chronicles, eat veggie soup and guacamole. walk and think. although i did see my parents on saturday morning at the tin roof bistro, which was super special, nice and delicious. i am fairly independent and do not see my mom and dad as much. at least lately. i suppose i go in phases. i've been tagged and i did not think i would be but...

four jobs I've had:
NK Lawn & Garden
Nature Center Camp Counselor
Substitute Art Teacher
Pharmacy Tech
Patient Accounts

four movies i could watch over and over:
big fish
city of lost children

four places I've lived:
3314 mtn view drive
st. elmo avenue
templeton CA
market street

four TV shows I watch:
david letterman
art 21
history detectives
sunday morning with charles osgood

four places I've vacationed:
boston mass
nyc new york
salmon creek falls

four foods I love:
garlic pasta
bryers vanilla bean with sunflower seeds
cream cheese

four sites I visit daily:
new eyes

four albums I can't live without:
beck's one foot in the grave
leonard cohen's best of
nick drake's northern sky & five leaves left
bright eyes

four places I'd rather be:
in my bed asleep
in my own studio space

four random items in my purse:

too many lipgloss(es)
pic disk
buttons/like 3 or 4 lighters

tag you're it:

that's it dude this kinda stuff where's me out.


to post or

not to post, without it i feel a little less of my life is moving forward. oh how i love my blog and our fine blogworld. i haven't had a whole lot of time. i was too fortunate to be in atlanta over the weekend with the k. fam for josiah's third birthday. we went to the new largest aquarium in the world aquarium on sunday afternoon for like 4 hours straight. found my own way to harry's after a weary turnabout in marietta and went thrifting, which i've not done in about a century. we had a glorious time and i felt i might've redeemed myself after stupidly missing josiah's second bday.
i came back on monday night through the very severe though southern winter weather. (so it wasn't as bad as or as beautiful as this or this). i spent most of the day on tuesday helping my friend out, but happened to old navy and bought a pretty little summer top which i'm not hesitating to wear today. even though the waking temp was about 24 degrees. i must say that i'm going to have to kick things up. i have got to stop being such a putz and finish the projects i say i am going to finish.

i was too fortunate as well to get a sweet, rather delicious mailorder from amy @ kingpod. although i do not think i got a subscription, which i regret terribly. oh well. i am still going to have fun. i am going to work on my cards for a sweet card swap with jm @ scraping and jesus this weekend. i am so looking forward to a more creative spurt. i will i will. and on top of that kate is making some real nice paintings, congrats in welcoming oil back into your life!

and by the way, i've mentioned before that i often get a lot of my fotos ie. the one above from a site called veer. i typically will leave the emblem on the right hand corner so that you'll know but i wanted to reply to what mecozy asked about the dove piece being mine. it isn't! it is from veer and on that one i did crop the logo. there is everything there @ veer. fonts and fotos galore. kate and i sometimes marvel that the stuff "falls" off their site so easily, but i attempt to always give credit when asked. the fotos are usually taken by individuals and so on and so forth, so i'm not so sure where the dove (last post) came from. so sorry. on this one the very top i did a search using the key word "owl" because i love how so many of you out there love the owls, thought this might find you a bit more inspired.

i've gotta work all weekend. i'm so glad you all like my postcards. cannot wait to see the gallery open. i have gotten 7 out 10. hope to see the final three come in soon. i'll attempt to post pics soon.